Hesitate by Brooks Anna & Brooks Anna

Author:Brooks, Anna & Brooks, Anna
Language: eng
Format: epub
Tags: GUARDING HER BOOK 6
Publisher: Anna Brooks
Published: 2020-02-05T16:00:00+00:00

Chapter 13

Madeline

The warm water that’s cascading down my body mingles with my tears as I allow a moment of weakness. Seeing him again yesterday, feeling his hands on me, listening to his words; it’s all too much. I wanted desperately to just dive into his arms and pretend that everything was okay. But it’s not. Everything I thought I knew about him was a lie and I’ve been through too much and have too much respect for myself to think he can just offer some lame explanation and I’ll understand.

Add to the fact that my mom is involved and it abolishes any second chance he ever could have had. She’s ruined enough of my life, and I’m so done with letting her affect me in any way.

Since I moved out and worked three jobs to pay for college and got my degree, my life was good… or at least better than my childhood. Not having her or her profession directly involved in any aspect of my life was a welcomed relief. Getting out of the town where everyone knew me as the porn star’s daughter was a blessing.

Yes, it’s sucked that guys recognize me as her daughter, and of course, I’ve had my run-ins with bad relationships, but compared to what I was accustomed to, I was so proud of myself and the independence that I worked so hard for.

It wasn’t until Q opened my eyes that I realized just how much I was missing. How little I laughed. How I didn’t truly understand what happiness felt like.

So it makes his betrayal that much worse. I’d have no problem getting rid of and moving on from any other man, but because I was in love for the first time in my life, it’s near impossible to just get over. I will eventually, but I’ll never forget, and I know that nobody else will ever make me as happy as he did.

The water begins to turn cold, so I finish rinsing the conditioner out of my hair, then get out of the shower and put some stretchy pants and a big sweatshirt on. After I finger comb my hair, I let it air-dry and go to the kitchen to get something to eat even though nothing sounds good.

As I’m digging around in my cupboards, there’s a knock on my door, and I feel that little dip in my stomach, thinking Q’s back, but then it swirls into nausea. And when I look through the peep hole, I almost don’t believe my eyes. That nausea turns to acid. If I hadn’t seen her last week with her hands on the man I thought I was going to spend the rest of my life with, I’d think I was hallucinating. She had no clue where I lived because I made it that way, so her coming here is a result of Q… another thing I have not to thank him for. And I also need to move.

I’m emotionally drained, I have been for over a week now.

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